Nothing going on...really

I had an okay day today...it was kinda quiet at work. I actually went to the gym for 40 minutes today. I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes and did some sit ups. I basically forced myself to go because I needed to start somewhere. It felt good to be downstairs and work out for a minute. I will start to go to the gym every day after work for at least 1 hour-I realized that today makes 8 months before our wedding day! I have so much to do with my health...it's like I have to pig out before January 1st...because once the new year comes in, junk food will have to take a back burner. I have to be serious, because I don't want to be a fat bride....

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This is my SONG! Even though they have many versions to Spread my Wings, it has always been a favorite!

I had a good time yesterday! The christening was beautiful (Wooda is sooooo cute) and it's been awhile since I've hung out with my cousins. i didn't do much today...

Going out tonight!!!

It's been a minute since I posted anything. I've been so damn lazy lately and I don't feel like doing much. Yet I complain about my weight gain. I am a big contradicting creature...Leos are like that. Begining of the New Year I will be on Weight Watchers for real this time, and I will bring Kenny in on it. We can cook healthy and lose weight together. That is what I plan to do.

Also I need to clean up this house. I've been slacking big time (Mommie and MaMa would be rolling around in their graves if they saw this house LOL)! The house isn't dirty with clothes and garbage all over the place, but it needs a sweeping and a mopping and a dusting LMAO (thinking of Celie and Nettie in The Color Purple). It's true if they say you bring in the New Year with a dirty house and dirty clothes, the rest of the year would be the same way...and it's so true! I was lazy and didn't feel like cleaning, and so this whole year I felt so lazy to get up and mop and sweep the kitchen and living room. Let's not get into the bathroom-yuck LOL! But all that will change.

Also, Dreka was saying how for the first two weeks of the New Year, she's off from school and she will be in the gym working out and I am going to be there too! It would be cool to have a workout partner (like me and Dache did back at Bathhouse) so I'd have some motivation. But I can workout by myself-its just getting downstairs to the gym from the office! Everyone is leaving for home for the day and I hafta go workout!!! I wanna go home too! But I have 8 months to work out and change my eating habits so that I can be a beautiful bride walking down the aisle in the Bahamas!!!

I picked up some things for Marquis, Marquel and Kyani for xmas...Marqela's stuff can wait for a bit-although I got her a striped pink blanket. Devin, Nazie, Rickie, Shanique, Shawn, TeeTee, and Quan can get money. I don't know what they would like, but they all love money LOL!

Yes I'm going out tonight! Going to Madame X's in the village with my old co workers who are real fun to be with! Just gonna relax and enjoy myself!

I love this pic...I think it's so relaxing to look at....

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Ha! I do feel like shit!

LOL, j/k! Today was okay; nothing to jump about.

Just can't believe it's December already and 2005 is right around the corner. I have so much to do, and don't even know where to start. For one, losing weight is number one on my list of resolutions! Next is to have long, healthy hair by the wedding in August; eat better-cut out beef for next year (at least until the wedding). Find a way to buy an outfit, or at least a shirt, a pair of jeans or something every paycheck. I need to build back up my wardrobe...and since I'm trying to lose weight, it would be only right to have new form fitting clothes...I'm not trying to wear my size 18's for the rest of my life! I want to look like a million bucks for the wedding...well, not just the wedding, but for the rest of my life. I really let myself go and I'm at my heaviest. Gotta get myself together...

Day 2...same ol' same 'ol

Hey! Today was okay...<

I think I'm pregnant. I'm not totally sure, because I have PCOS and it's hard to conceive, but I'm having some symptoms: sore breasts, crazy hunger, Kenny sleeping alot LOL...I don't think I am though. OH WELL! I guess it's gonna have to wait until after the wedding...

Today, I am coming to the conclusion that I can't be like this anymore. Weight Watchers really worked for me when I was dedicated, and I do like to work out-once I'm finished I feel good. So, starting January 1st, I'm going to make major changes...I have no choice but to go back on WW and exercise. I want to try yoga too, to clear my head and to become focused again. I'm trying to grow my hair long like it was years ago and I want to go down to 150lbs. I'm currently 230lbs. I think it can be done by August. Who knows? This is something I have to do.

I'm a lil apprehensive to really let out my feelings right now. There are some things that I'm going through emotionally, especially during the holidays. I really miss my parents, my Aunt Ginger and my grandmother Ida Frances. I miss bugging out with my mom, taking drives to different places with Daddy, talking to Aunt Ginger on the phone for hours about everything and nothing, and getting letters and cards in the mail from MaMa. I've been very fortunate to make it this far in my life with all the tragedy that I've encountered, but still feel like something is missing besides my beloved family...damn, I sound like a novel!

More to come! Until tomorrow!

My first blog....wtf is a blog?!?!

This is my first post on my new blog...I had no idea what the hell a blog was LOL! I found out that my nephew had a blog and other people had them too, so why not have my own? I haven't had a journal in years...and right now, I really need to release my thoughts....

I have alot of issues...

Today wasn't a good day for me. I was really stressed out at work....see, they are enforcing all these rules and if you mess up, then you get fired. I already have other things that I have to deal with: bills, the wedding, my health, etc. I gained some weight (10lbs) and I'm really feeling every pound. I don't feel sexy at all...just feel real fat. I know what I have to do in order to lose weight, but I'm just so lazy!!! I gotta make some kind of move to lose at least 50lbs...I'll start January 1st 2005...

Until tomorrow...