I'm soooooooooooooooo lazy!

Damn! I have to go to a party tonight at the Copa Cabana...I don't feel like dressing up tho. Dache is going this time-and I don't have to drive!!! I'm so lazy!

I am drinking the whey protein, but I'm not exercising like I should. And plus I'm taking these BC pills, and it's prolly gonna make me gain weight too! Arrrrrgh! I don't have too much time to twiddle my thumbs-I don't think I'm going to lose 80lbs in 5 months!!! Oh well. But I have to start doing something, because by that time, Kenny and I will start TTC and I want to be a smooth hassle free experience. We must start our family *smile*.

I've been down lately-mostly about bills and not enough money to pay for the wedding. Unfortunately, we don't have rich families and no family members who would contribute to our wedding, so I feel like we will not have the dream wedding in time (by August). Kenny SAID he'll make sure that our wedding will be no less than perfect. I believe him; and I will not go out like that either!

Lately, I have been having the same feelings that I used to have when I was a lil kid. Back in the day, there would be a group of us, and most of my friends were at least 2 years older than me. They would huddle in a group and whisper secrets, and leave me out. I used to feel small, like no one wanted me to know what was going on or wanted to tell me secrets, so I used to be sad about it. Fast forward 2005, and I still feel this way. I'm a grown ass woman, but when my friends at work sit with each other, once in awhile they invite me into their 'talk session'. One of them commented that I was quiet most of the day, and I said that I wasn't invited to talk with y'all, so I'm not gonna jump into a conversation I wasn't invited into. There are people who are so damn nosy and will do just that-but I know my limits...thanks Mommie for instilling that in me.