Feeling good this Saturday afternoon...!

Still haven't done anything big yet for the wedding; we still owe $600 for our wedding rings and still owe $3700 for the actual wedding. That doesn't include the extras like videographer, photographer (if my uncle doesn't come thru), and other things. Time is flying by; next week will be April...damn.

I went out with the girls from the job, and I had a good time. I'm glad I went out because Kenny went out too with his bro and friends. He needed to get out and party while he is on vacation from his job. He works so hard, and I wouldn't want him to stay in the house during his time off from both his jobs. I'm at the point where I gained so much weight and I would be so self conscious about myself. I deviated from the Buff Brides workout this week because my girlfriends from the job needed a ride home almost all this week. I am going to get back on track. And I haven't started the Colonix yet. I will start soon-kinda looking forward towards the results LOL!

My 10 year HS anniversary is in June and I need to shape this body up and lose the weight somehow. But eating fast food ain't gonna cut it! I'm so weak when it comes to food :(

I'm soooooooooooooooo lazy!

Damn! I have to go to a party tonight at the Copa Cabana...I don't feel like dressing up tho. Dache is going this time-and I don't have to drive!!! I'm so lazy!

I am drinking the whey protein, but I'm not exercising like I should. And plus I'm taking these BC pills, and it's prolly gonna make me gain weight too! Arrrrrgh! I don't have too much time to twiddle my thumbs-I don't think I'm going to lose 80lbs in 5 months!!! Oh well. But I have to start doing something, because by that time, Kenny and I will start TTC and I want to be a smooth hassle free experience. We must start our family *smile*.

I've been down lately-mostly about bills and not enough money to pay for the wedding. Unfortunately, we don't have rich families and no family members who would contribute to our wedding, so I feel like we will not have the dream wedding in time (by August). Kenny SAID he'll make sure that our wedding will be no less than perfect. I believe him; and I will not go out like that either!

Lately, I have been having the same feelings that I used to have when I was a lil kid. Back in the day, there would be a group of us, and most of my friends were at least 2 years older than me. They would huddle in a group and whisper secrets, and leave me out. I used to feel small, like no one wanted me to know what was going on or wanted to tell me secrets, so I used to be sad about it. Fast forward 2005, and I still feel this way. I'm a grown ass woman, but when my friends at work sit with each other, once in awhile they invite me into their 'talk session'. One of them commented that I was quiet most of the day, and I said that I wasn't invited to talk with y'all, so I'm not gonna jump into a conversation I wasn't invited into. There are people who are so damn nosy and will do just that-but I know my limits...thanks Mommie for instilling that in me.

It's been a long time...

It's been awhile since I've posted. Happy New Year! I'm still pigging out-I'm not preggo and I'm stressing about this wedding. We had decided to go with Minisink in Harlem, but we won't have professional caterers. But if we go with a catering hall, then we have to pay per head, and we're planning to invite 170 people. Oh well...we don't have that much time.

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I haven't heard this song is soooooooooooo long!!!! It gets me hyped up in a good way! I used to play this song alot.


I'm going to the gym when I get back to work. This weekend, we got the big blizzard, and it looks like it's 10 inches outside. I'm not ready to shovel my car out of the snow and drive to work on Monday. Them fools at VZ will not see me on Monday LOL!

Nothing going on...really

I had an okay day today...it was kinda quiet at work. I actually went to the gym for 40 minutes today. I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes and did some sit ups. I basically forced myself to go because I needed to start somewhere. It felt good to be downstairs and work out for a minute. I will start to go to the gym every day after work for at least 1 hour-I realized that today makes 8 months before our wedding day! I have so much to do with my health...it's like I have to pig out before January 1st...because once the new year comes in, junk food will have to take a back burner. I have to be serious, because I don't want to be a fat bride....

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This is my SONG! Even though they have many versions to Spread my Wings, it has always been a favorite!

I had a good time yesterday! The christening was beautiful (Wooda is sooooo cute) and it's been awhile since I've hung out with my cousins. i didn't do much today...

Going out tonight!!!

It's been a minute since I posted anything. I've been so damn lazy lately and I don't feel like doing much. Yet I complain about my weight gain. I am a big contradicting creature...Leos are like that. Begining of the New Year I will be on Weight Watchers for real this time, and I will bring Kenny in on it. We can cook healthy and lose weight together. That is what I plan to do.

Also I need to clean up this house. I've been slacking big time (Mommie and MaMa would be rolling around in their graves if they saw this house LOL)! The house isn't dirty with clothes and garbage all over the place, but it needs a sweeping and a mopping and a dusting LMAO (thinking of Celie and Nettie in The Color Purple). It's true if they say you bring in the New Year with a dirty house and dirty clothes, the rest of the year would be the same way...and it's so true! I was lazy and didn't feel like cleaning, and so this whole year I felt so lazy to get up and mop and sweep the kitchen and living room. Let's not get into the bathroom-yuck LOL! But all that will change.

Also, Dreka was saying how for the first two weeks of the New Year, she's off from school and she will be in the gym working out and I am going to be there too! It would be cool to have a workout partner (like me and Dache did back at Bathhouse) so I'd have some motivation. But I can workout by myself-its just getting downstairs to the gym from the office! Everyone is leaving for home for the day and I hafta go workout!!! I wanna go home too! But I have 8 months to work out and change my eating habits so that I can be a beautiful bride walking down the aisle in the Bahamas!!!

I picked up some things for Marquis, Marquel and Kyani for xmas...Marqela's stuff can wait for a bit-although I got her a striped pink blanket. Devin, Nazie, Rickie, Shanique, Shawn, TeeTee, and Quan can get money. I don't know what they would like, but they all love money LOL!

Yes I'm going out tonight! Going to Madame X's in the village with my old co workers who are real fun to be with! Just gonna relax and enjoy myself!

I love this pic...I think it's so relaxing to look at....

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